I feel lonely today.  

secret_lade 46F
4311 posts
4/4/2020 3:34 pm
I feel lonely today.


The Spawn is face-timing with her best friend and my Middle is at work right now....

Leaving clean the kitchen for the 9 millionth time today and listen to the downstairs neighbor lady hack a lung while she smokes her smokes.

Everything about these neighbors disgust .

I wish the Kool Aid Man would bust through their apartment, leaving it a complete loss.

Hey Kool Aid Man....

Over here! Take these assholes OUT!

Maybe I could get a little fresh air breathe for a change....

I miss being able get out days like today and just.... Explore. I miss road trips, seeing the sights, and going to places I haven't yet been.

You don't quite realize how important your freedom is to you, until you no longer have it.

For safety's sake, though, I will remain at home, safely sheltered.

Wishing for the day to come that I can hop in my car and escape.

secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/7/2020 4:38 pm

    Quoting citizen4722:
    I'm grateful that my four siblings still live in the same city as myself. They take in turns phoning me and asking what I need, even if it's just for a chat.
That's great! I wish my brother and I were closer... We haven't spoken in years. I tried reaching out to him when I found out my niece had cancer....


citizen4722 62M  
66540 posts
4/7/2020 4:02 pm

I'm grateful that my four siblings still live in the same city as myself. They take in turns phoning me and asking what I need, even if it's just for a chat.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/5/2020 4:29 pm

    Quoting tickles4us:
    Well I didn't do much at all. Fooled around on the internet. Reading stuff... I get lost pretty easily, and distracted and side tracked so far off on other paths that I forget what I was looking up in the first place. It also causes my eye lids to get very heavy... and before you know it I'm waking up and wondering what I was doing.

    Then it's time to get something to eat.

    But hey Tyrump wants to send us all back out to work so everybody won't figure out what a worthless bag of shit he is before the election. But I don't think he's going to get his way. The governors with any sense will keep things going until the medical people say what's good to do. Which depends a lot on what testing for immunity they come up with and how fast they can produce and deploy it.

    So what is your favorite Cool Aid flavor? I like the raspberry lemonaid pretty well.

    Damn I never knew they had so many flavors... https://www.ranker.com/list/best-kool-aid-flavors/ranker-food
Cherry will always be my favorite flavor....

I'm also easily distracted. Kind of a curse... I went in my room this morning to get a load of laundry.... Before I knew it I had a sink full of dishes soaking and half the shower scrubbed. I never did that load of laundry.


tickles4us 58M
7170 posts
4/5/2020 2:46 pm

Well I didn't do much at all. Fooled around on the internet. Reading stuff... I get lost pretty easily, and distracted and side tracked so far off on other paths that I forget what I was looking up in the first place. It also causes my eye lids to get very heavy... and before you know it I'm waking up and wondering what I was doing.

Then it's time to get something to eat.

But hey Tyrump wants to send us all back out to work so everybody won't figure out what a worthless bag of shit he is before the election. But I don't think he's going to get his way. The governors with any sense will keep things going until the medical people say what's good to do. Which depends a lot on what testing for immunity they come up with and how fast they can produce and deploy it.

So what is your favorite Cool Aid flavor? I like the raspberry lemonaid pretty well.

Damn I never knew they had so many flavors... https://www.ranker.com/list/best-kool-aid-flavors/ranker-food

Vive La Difference


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:55 pm

    Quoting 69ereatwetpussy:
    I can understand that been a long winter now it's longer do to this. It will be over just hang on. Warmer weather coming.
I cant wait!


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:54 pm

    Quoting TicklePlease:
    I felt that way the other day... just stressed and trapped and needing a little space to just cry for a few but there were all these people here at home!! Hang in there, you're not alone
Knowing that I'm not alone in this is very comforting. I know that this will come to pass, it's just getting there that's causing me to struggle. I've stopped watching the news and avoid the presidential press conferences.... Along with the governor stuff.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:50 pm

    Quoting easy_going2014:
    today, I didn't watch the news

    my grandkids came over to visit

    my daughter had to buy groceries and her husband is a first responder, pulling 2 double shifts, so she needed back up

    they only live a few blocks away

    we had fun watching "Angry Birds"

    we ate our fave food for lunch

    we watched the race cars go 'round in circles

    we played hide and seek, but not 2 complicated as he's 2 1/2 and she will turn 1 at the end of the month

    we checked the mail

    then, we ate dinner

    then, we had bath time

    then, we hugged and said our "till next times"

    it was a good day

    be safe
That sounds like a good day.... I miss my kids when they were babies. I miss holding their tiny little hands, and making them smile and laugh when I poked their bellies. I do not miss changing diapers though.....


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:43 pm

    Quoting lonlyforlove2:
    A very nice day here in North GA today, I continued to work on my lawn, we had a long bad winter, they are looking much better , this being the second day in a week that I was able to get out and work.. wit 3 acres and a lot of trees it takes a lot of work, to keep it nice, So social distancing in my yard.. Hope all come through OK..
It was rainy and cold here.... Not a very nice day. Maybe if the sun would come out for a while it could brighten my spirits. It seems to only shine when I'm locked away at work.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:41 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    I did that a week ago. I got in my car and drove thru the hill country to a lake then drove back. No interaction, just taking in the scenery. It was nice.
Ive refrained from driving anywhere since the nonessential travel ban went into effect. I felt like I was breaking the law the other day when I went to the post office.... I don't like this at all.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:37 pm

    Quoting pagancountrygirl:
    Maybe getting out and going for a drive...without interacting with people...could help change your mood. Maybe find a pretty spot in the country or by a lake and just watch nature for a bit...
We're on a nonessential travel ban as well... I have to carry an essential worker certificate in my car in case I get stopped on my way to or from work. A couple of my coworkers have already said they've been stopped, so I haven't ventured far.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 11:32 pm

    Quoting japaneseass:
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    hanging in there...this too shall pass....
Yes it shall... It just feels like forever.


japaneseass 52F  
49043 posts
4/4/2020 8:57 pm

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hanging in there...this too shall pass....


pagancountrygirl 62F
5106 posts
4/4/2020 8:02 pm

Maybe getting out and going for a drive...without interacting with people...could help change your mood. Maybe find a pretty spot in the country or by a lake and just watch nature for a bit...

Pagan
Hmmmm....I know I left that wand around here somewhere!


mc_justmc 60M  
5858 posts
4/4/2020 7:27 pm

I did that a week ago. I got in my car and drove thru the hill country to a lake then drove back. No interaction, just taking in the scenery. It was nice.


lonlyforlove2 77M  
4153 posts
4/4/2020 6:10 pm

A very nice day here in North GA today, I continued to work on my lawn, we had a long bad winter, they are looking much better , this being the second day in a week that I was able to get out and work.. wit 3 acres and a lot of trees it takes a lot of work, to keep it nice, So social distancing in my yard.. Hope all come through OK..

Be sure to look in at lonlyforlove2 . It may make you smile


easy_going2014 53M
12834 posts
4/4/2020 5:56 pm

today, I didn't watch the news

my grandkids came over to visit

my daughter had to buy groceries and her husband is a first responder, pulling 2 double shifts, so she needed back up

they only live a few blocks away

we had fun watching "Angry Birds"

we ate our fave food for lunch

we watched the race cars go 'round in circles

we played hide and seek, but not 2 complicated as he's 2 1/2 and she will turn 1 at the end of the month

we checked the mail

then, we ate dinner

then, we had bath time

then, we hugged and said our "till next times"

it was a good day

be safe

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TicklePlease 52F  
12729 posts
4/4/2020 5:53 pm

I felt that way the other day... just stressed and trapped and needing a little space to just cry for a few but there were all these people here at home!! Hang in there, you're not alone


69ereatwetpussy 57M
3560 posts
4/4/2020 5:02 pm

I can understand that been a long winter now it's longer do to this. It will be over just hang on. Warmer weather coming.


secret_lade 46F
3121 posts
4/4/2020 4:05 pm

    Quoting 69ereatwetpussy:
    I so gal I've move where I live now 5 years ago yesterday ..I now have 4.5 Acer's to walk with my dogs.
    Even though where i live we could go out in the yard on the screen deck even walk the streets around the neighborhood.
    Hell go to my boat work on it.getvinto the water and go fishing.
    I'm use to this yet it sucks we can visit family.
    So far only one member is not telling good he owns a day care it's now closed he in quaritin.
    I have two friends I worked with sick one tested positive so glad I'm retired.
    It will take time yet it will get back to normal what ever that is.
    Xoxoxoxooxox Thoma we are here any time you want to chat.
It's cold and raining today.... Or, I would have taken a walk on the walking path behind my building. I don't usually feel this... Alone. Maybe because I'm kind of just, stuck here.... Normally when I start to feel like this I pick a destination and just go there...


69ereatwetpussy 57M
3560 posts
4/4/2020 3:52 pm

I so gal I've move where I live now 5 years ago yesterday ..I now have 4.5 Acer's to walk with my dogs.
Even though where i live we could go out in the yard on the screen deck even walk the streets around the neighborhood.
Hell go to my boat work on it.getvinto the water and go fishing.
I'm use to this yet it sucks we can visit family.
So far only one member is not telling good he owns a day care it's now closed he in quaritin.
I have two friends I worked with sick one tested positive so glad I'm retired.
It will take time yet it will get back to normal what ever that is.
Xoxoxoxooxox Thoma we are here any time you want to chat.


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