A day in the life....  

secret_lade 45F
3372 posts
3/11/2020 2:31 pm
A day in the life....


The work facade is crumbling today....

It started in the parking lot when Slow Moe Joe waited for me to get out of my car and start to walk into the building so he could walk in with me.

Everything about him is slow... Even the way he enunciates his words makes me want to scream in his face to speed up.

"Well.... Talk about this weather, huh.... I wasn't expecting snow or anything....."

"They said on the news it was supposed to snow," I replied, walking a little faster.

"Really.... I hadn't heard that....... This is just such a surprise to me...."

OMG! God help me, I'm not going to make it through the day. I finally ditched him as I was walking much faster than he was only to be confronted at my office door by an employee who needed help requesting time off.

I shut my office door right after I walked through as I could hear her calling my name. Turning my back to the window, I could see her staring at me as I set my coat on my desk and reached into my purse to pull out my name badge.

Come on people..... I'm not even on the fucking clock yet.

The moment I opened my office door to go punch in she was there, asking me how to request time off and where to go to do so.

I told her I had to punch in and kept moving.

I did tell her, over my shoulder, she still had to go to the same place as always to request time off and disappeared out the door. This is not a new employee, she has been working here longer than I have.

I have enough on my plate with my own job to be doing other peoples shit too.

After punching in, I headed back to my office and shut the door.

I never work with the door shut....

Did it stop anyone?

Fuck no!

The next thing I know I've got an angry employee knocking on my door because he "just needs a form." I don't normally work with with this guy as he works an entirely different shift than I do, but he's all disgruntled and angry because he doesn't feel he should have to do anything to get his medical benefit discount for his wife.

Again.... All his responsibility to make sure he logs into shit, requests shit, and creates his own accounts.

Not mine.

Finally his manager shows up as he was the one who was originally supposed to be helping him and I excused myself to do my actual job for a change.

Not for long....

Because Meme Guy showed up in my office to tell me he is having a bad day. I genuinely feel for Meme Guy, though, as his is struggling with some identity issues and it has manifested in depression and self harm. Today, though, he is telling me someone close to him has committed suicide and I'm breaking down inside as I hear about it. Emotional issues and depression are prevalent in his 's genetic makeup, and while I don't know his , I feel for her.

And worry about her.

The work facade has nearly disappeared for today.

Most days I have it all together. I NEED to have it all together as my days are filled with hiring, and meetings, and conference calls, and crazy boss antics, and employees who have issues with their pay, their benefits, their EVERYTHING.

Some days, like today, I pretend to be ok, but I'm teetering inside, slowly pulling the pieces back into place to form myself once again. It doesn't take much to sway me, one way or the other, and even as I sit here typing this my phone is ringing off the hook and employees are circling my closed office door because I've left a note on the outside that says...

Do Not Disturb

I just need five fucking minutes....

Five minutes to regroup, get my fucking shit together, slap some stucco on my crumbling facade, and make it through the day.

Update.....

So, yah. I sat in my office with the door shut and typed this up in an email to myself earlier in the day.

I don't normally do that....

When I'm at work, I'm at work and that's my focus. Today, however, was a particularly bad emotional day for me and I whole heartedly needed an opportunity to vent, which I did not have.

It's amazing the impact your environment can have on you.

One of my coworkers asked me today, while we were waiting in line for the restroom, if I felt like I'd earned my psychology degree today.

She may have been kidding, but she wasn't far from the truth. I know more about the people I work with than I do about my own family.

And now I am here, at home, digesting the shit show of a day I had today. My has just spilled my coffee all over myself, the couch, and the floor and I'm still replaying the argument I just got into with my ex husband over and over in my mind.

Fucking fantastic.

secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/14/2020 2:40 pm

    Quoting playingalone55:
    I used to have days like that all the time. Nobody knows how to do their job and they would meander to me and ask how to do this and how to do that. I had the same job as them but they didn't know anything. The worst part of it was that I wouldn't get my job done and I got paid for what I did.
I bet you don't miss those days.... Sometimes I gently remind people that "we just talked about this yesterday, do you remember what I said?" And wait for them to respond. It puts them on the spot and forces them to pay attention this time around.


playingalone55 68M  
185 posts
3/14/2020 2:34 pm

I used to have days like that all the time. Nobody knows how to do their job and they would meander to me and ask how to do this and how to do that. I had the same job as them but they didn't know anything. The worst part of it was that I wouldn't get my job done and I got paid for what I did.


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/12/2020 2:57 pm

    Quoting pocogato12:
    I had a day like that long ago and I know just what you were feeling. And then a co-worker went to one of the head honchos and complained that I had my door shut and wouldnt talk to anyone. He got it and told her to bug off. Nice when someone sticks up for you. Hey, lady, tomorrow is Friday
Yes it is... Fri-Yay!!! It has been a really long week full of Mondays.... Thankfully my boss is pretty good when it comes to bad days and bad moments. I don't have them to this degree very often, but when I do, I just tell him I'm having a rough time and he'll go out of his way to try to make things better for me in whatever way he can.


pocogato12 67F  
32124 posts
3/12/2020 5:28 am

I had a day like that long ago and I know just what you were feeling. And then a co-worker went to one of the head honchos and complained that I had my door shut and wouldnt talk to anyone. He got it and told her to bug off. Nice when someone sticks up for you. Hey, lady, tomorrow is Friday

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secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/12/2020 3:37 am

    Quoting mentsana69:
    i want to have a talk with you...your so interesting
Interesting in what way.... Interesting, crazy? Interesting, unique?


mentsana69 29M
24 posts
3/12/2020 3:03 am

i want to have a talk with you...your so interesting


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/12/2020 2:32 am

    Quoting pagancountrygirl:
    There are days I walk by my bosses office and tell her I'm going to take up drinking as a hobby. She knows that means it's a shit day when I say that. She also knows I'm lying since I don't drink....and have never been drunk.
    But it's the thought that counts, right?
    Hope you have a better day tomorrow.
The boss duo had the day off yesterday, so I didn't even have them to contend with. I was also having a high anxiety day.... Which I didn't actually realize until I got to the gym last night. My muscles were tight and I could feel it immediately when I got on the elliptical. I carry stress in my shoulders and could feel it immediately when my arms started moving back and forth. I didn't make it very long before I switched over to the bike.


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/12/2020 2:28 am

    Quoting easy_going2014:
    thanks for sharing

    hope it gets better

    we don't have offices or doors where we work

    there are rows of tables where our work areas are

    we have extra monitors so we can have multiple sessions up

    we are well paid for what we do

    but, there is no privacy

    so, if you want to be alone you either have to go outside, find a small private conference room, or walk the building

    sometimes, I have to put my headphones on, and tell people I'm on a call, and I can get some "alone" time

    and, when I do that I can listen to some of my "feel good" songs

    and "easy going" is back

    just sayin'

    Dierks Bentley - "Living"

    This mornin' I got up at 6:01
    I walked out and saw the rising sun
    And I drank it in like whiskey
    I saw a tree I've seen a thousand times
    A bird on a branch and I watched it fly away in the wind
    And it hit me
    It's a beautiful world sometimes I don't see so clear
    Some days you just breath in
    Just try to break even
    Sometimes your heart's poundin' out of your chest
    Sometimes it's just beatin'
    Some days you just forget
    What all you've been given
    Some days you just get back
    And some days you're just alive
    Some days you're livin'
    Some days you're livin'
Rows of tables.... Oh, yikes, that would be horrible. My best friend now works from home, but when she was still working at the office she had a tiny cube in the middle of a giant cube jungle... I thought that was insane. She had enough room to have a chair and one filing cabinet in there.

As an introvert, I have a hard time working in those environments. I get peopled out.


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/12/2020 2:19 am

I have nowhere to go, but up. I'm certain it will be a much better day.


funiithesun58 62M
1134 posts
3/12/2020 12:35 am

Hope you have a better day tomarrow


easy_going2014 53M
12404 posts
3/11/2020 10:42 pm

thanks for sharing

hope it gets better

we don't have offices or doors where we work

there are rows of tables where our work areas are

we have extra monitors so we can have multiple sessions up

we are well paid for what we do

but, there is no privacy

so, if you want to be alone you either have to go outside, find a small private conference room, or walk the building

sometimes, I have to put my headphones on, and tell people I'm on a call, and I can get some "alone" time

and, when I do that I can listen to some of my "feel good" songs

and "easy going" is back

just sayin'

Dierks Bentley - "Living"

This mornin' I got up at 6:01
I walked out and saw the rising sun
And I drank it in like whiskey
I saw a tree I've seen a thousand times
A bird on a branch and I watched it fly away in the wind
And it hit me
It's a beautiful world sometimes I don't see so clear
Some days you just breath in
Just try to break even
Sometimes your heart's poundin' out of your chest
Sometimes it's just beatin'
Some days you just forget
What all you've been given
Some days you just get back
And some days you're just alive
Some days you're livin'
Some days you're livin'

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pagancountrygirl 62F
4914 posts
3/11/2020 6:32 pm

There are days I walk by my bosses office and tell her I'm going to take up drinking as a hobby. She knows that means it's a shit day when I say that. She also knows I'm lying since I don't drink....and have never been drunk.
But it's the thought that counts, right?
Hope you have a better day tomorrow.

Pagan
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Paulxx001 63M  
15346 posts
3/11/2020 6:16 pm

Ya know what?
Don't fight.
The decision should be basses on money, and what it can buy
Quality of life... and how it will affect, both of you and your kids.
It's a challenge. I understand how BOTH of you feel.
Give it some space...

... is there another way to look at it.
Coincidence... or destiny The Bench


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/11/2020 6:02 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    My feeling? Never mind today.
    You're distracted by your promotion offer. You're thinking about it... and measuring the stuff you have to face here (where you are now) - and comparing it, to what you might face 'there'.
    What will you see... over there? 🤔
The ex and I fought about the promotion tonight. I finally told him I was considering a move and he lost his shit, which made the spawn cry. Ugh....


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/11/2020 5:56 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    I had a relaxing day at the dentist.
I went to the dentist yesterday.... Holy hell, I've never had them do 'measurements' on my teeth before. They poked the SHIT out of my gums. Then she said, are your gums sensitive?? Apparently my bloody, pin pricked gums indicate sensitivity.


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/11/2020 5:52 pm

    Quoting  :

Tomorrow is a new day..... New day, New opportunities. I do hope it is better.


Paulxx001 63M  
15346 posts
3/11/2020 5:17 pm

My feeling? Never mind today.
You're distracted by your promotion offer. You're thinking about it... and measuring the stuff you have to face here (where you are now) - and comparing it, to what you might face 'there'.
What will you see... over there? 🤔

... is there another way to look at it.
Coincidence... or destiny The Bench


mc_justmc 59M  
5577 posts
3/11/2020 4:57 pm

I had a relaxing day at the dentist.


secret_lade 45F
2508 posts
3/11/2020 2:59 pm

Spawn - When I call my Mom the B-Word I mean this.... Beautiful

Me - Are you saying that because you spilled coffee on my boobs?

Spawn - No. I'm saying that because it's in a song. Oh, and, I love you.


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